Do you ever have the time of the month where you just want to leave your life? Do you ever felt that pain where you don’t know how to ease? That’s PMS was.
I’ve been battling that for years now. I thought before, it’s a normal thing for women. Some of my friends have it too but mine is severe thing. There are those times that my mood alters so much, my appetite kicks in five knots that i craved a lot, too sleepy that i can’t barely control. My body aches everywhere, i have cramps that feels it takes my life back.
Every month, i encounter that. After 20 days from my last, the symptoms are coming back. Sometimes, I keep track on my cycle to avoid severe pain. I tried a lot of natural remedies to lessen the pain. Some works a bit some not. So I even have painkillers in my medicine container, ready to swallow.
In my first days, is a battle, a battle of my physical endurance from the unimaginable pain. I spend my time almost in bed curling and moaning the agony, and gritting my teeth. That feeling when you don’t know where to touch, how to position your body to feel comfortable and the chilling feeling inside that brings sweat outside? It brings tears in my eyes. I don’t know how i endure that monthly. But what can i do? It’s already part of me i guess.
It bothers me more and more so i tried to research about it on the net. I discovered that it is not only just a simple PMS. There is a thing called PMDD or Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder in which i always encounter. It is a more severe PMS. Studies says that PMDD is a disorder among women suffering PMS. The symptoms of the thing that i thought a PMS was thE symptoms of PMDD is.
I read that on one article that caffeine is the one beverage that needs to be stop. But as a coffee addict who drinks 5 glasses a day, i think it’s too hard for me to stop it. Coffee is always my beverage starter of the day. I feel not complete if i can’t drink before i start my work.That is why, when i have my cycle, i feel so moody, so sleepy and feeling that cramps. I feel angry at some point leads to mistreating others. I even feel so lazy to continue my life on. The pain. It makes me so weak.
At the end of the day, PMS is my thing to endure monthly.